Sure i could have done that.
My hobbying life is also a secret life i have lived.
There's nobody else i can talk to about this kind of stuff except those that are depraved as I am and to People that understand what i have been going through the past 25+ years.
Good for you and I hope you can stick to your plan. I too have had failed relationships and two divorces, the first mostly my fault the second her fault, but both times I lost my house and hundreds of thousands of dollars as well as my children. And considering how few times I had sex with my second evil ex, each fuck cost me tens of thousands of dollars. But whoring to save money isn't the answer.
I never had sex, even a BJ with any MPA (yet) and never saw one during the times when I was in a happy relationship or marriage. I only started back again and signed up here after my gf and baby momma of many years went back to china last year. Since I don't jerk off, I get a HJ a few times per month.
I can't "make love" with a woman whom I don't love, so that's why I haven't had sex yet. I actually don't miss the sex as much as having a great woman to kiss, have fun with, talk with...and hopefully she has a delicious pussy as I haven't eaten it since 2012. In fact of all the girls/women I've been with, only three were DELICIOUS, so I know it's quite rare. But at my age I can't afford to lose another house, more of my pension, savings... I'm looking to get married, but it seems like most women are useless at planning and saving as it's always them that moves into the guy's house and then steals half on the way out. It would be great to meet a woman who has her shit together and actually owns her own house. Then we could be married without fear of losing the house we have.
These days women are a money pit, even girlfriends. They bring nothing to the table except sex and even that is usually rationed or used as a bargaining tool I order to take our time, money and other assets. So even dating may not be worth the headache band that's why the red pill, mgtow movement is so huge.
I already have children so don't need a female for procreation anymore. The two my ex had her satanic jew judge and lawyer steal from me will soon be adults and can come back to me. Plus their mother is around 250+++ lbs already so hopefully God will take her SOON. And I have my two from my last relationship with me, so don't need more children. If you don't want children, then I'd suggest you use your time and money to improve yourself. Go (back) to the gym now that they're open, take a course, learn a language, pick up new vocational training...your options for a QUALITY woman will increase.
Giving up whoring is great not only for your bank balance and your health (hopefully you've managed to avoid all the STIs/STDs out there, but also for your mind and soul. Work/spend on yourself and hopefully any relationship you want will fall into place.
Personally I'm sick of western women and the satanic/zionist jew courts/system here that steals everything from men to give to women and of course the jew lawyers, so I'm looking to leave and go to a decent country as soon as this plandemic blows over. Where men don't get raped by the courts, children aren't fed the satanic queer agenda from kindergarten and the politicians, courts, education system don't serve the jew and APARTHEID israel. Malaysia fits that description nicely. Plus I can buy a nice house for a few hundred thousand and live well even on the reduced pension I'll be receiving.
Goodluck on your journey and feel free to DM me anytime.